Saturday, March 24, 2012

Simply Saturday

Well, I slept in a little later than I had planned. I went to my friends house Teresa today. She is hemming Eleni's dress for me. She is not only a great friend but a great seamstress. We visited with her for a bit and did some catching up. Teresa and I had become really close and after losing Ray I pushed everyone away. I just didn't want to be bothered. Although I have never felt that way about my friends it was easier to be alone. So it was good just hanging out with her for a little bit. My girls also love her she is so good to them!
After visiting with Teresa we went to tan. I just find this so relaxing. I know it's not good for you but hey what is anymore? Our next stop was the grocery store. I hate the grocery store! It cost so much to eat and drive. I don't know what we are going to do with things going up and our pay checks staying the same. I will be honest some days I really worry about the future of this Country.

After all my running it was home for the evening. Eleni is out with her boyfriend. Jessica is out seeing Hunger Games with a friend. It was just me and the pets. I fixed me a sandwich watched some TV. Then I started a puzzle worked on that while watching the movie Selena. I then washed a load of clothes and packed a couple of boxes. I figure if I do a little everyday it won't be so overwhelming when it's time to move. Still not sure where we will end up but I'm not to stresses at the moment. Now I'm catching up on FB, Gmail, and blogs. I thought I would do a quick post.

I have heard mixed feelings about this early Spring we have been having. I can only say I am loving it. I love the time change I wish it was like this all year. I love seeing the sun when I get off and enjoying it when I get home. The Winter months really bring me down. I sleep a lot and hate to go out. When it's warm I try to get up earlier and enjoy the beautiful days. I know Summer may be a beast this year but it's better than the cold. Plus everything is so much prettier and cheerful. I love seeing all the flowers bloom and the azalea bushes and trees in bloom. Makes me a little happy and we all know how much I need that these days. Well, I won't keep you all any longer. I think I'm going to work on my puzzle for a bit. Happy Spring Everyone!


Saturday, March 10, 2012

It's been awhile.

Life started moving in the fast lane. Eleni graduates this year so I was all wrapped up in the needs of a senior. We have already bought prom dress and shoes. Graduation dress, shoes, cap, and gown also all taken care of. She has already started tanning for the big days ahead. I can remember back in the day before prom everyone would be laying out trying to get a little bit of color. Ahh those were the days. I can remember going to the beach, lake, and even the river to get that summer tan hours and hours of just laying there. I must admit I can not take that heat anymore. I make it about 30 minutes and I'm done. I am a sissy now I also tan. Hey I'm a firm believer in fat looks better tan. :)

I have been asked a few questions about myself. I'm going to try to answer everyone hopefully.  I do not craft anymore unless it's to repaint something. I used to cross stitch a lot but now it hurts my eyes and I don't have the patience to finish anything. I do have several pieces in my house of cross stitches I have made in the past. I was a huge scrapbook junkie. After Ray died I basically quit taking pictures and have not done any scrap booking  in over a year. I have a few pictures from early years and of course Eleni's senior year to do. It's just not the same as before losing Ray. He would always want to see what I had done and always had something nice to say. I miss the feed back I guess not to mention the pictures of him!

I have been asked was I seeing someone to help me trough losing Ray. The answer is yes, at one time I was seeing a counselor, my primary care physician, and a psychiatrist. Now I only see the psychiatrist. I had an appointment with him last week. He says I'm still not where he would like me to be. I'm just not ready to accept all of this I will be honest. I still wish for a miracle. It's very hard going from a couple of 24 years to being single and alone. It's not a feeling I would wish on anyone. I have been asked by many do I think I would ever date again. My answer is NO! I just don't want to get that involved with anyone again. I could not stand to go through another loss like this. Maybe in time I will change my mind but I doubt it. Ray was and will always be the love of my life.

I want to tell each and everyone of you thank-you. You have been so supportive and kind. Thank you for sticking by me through my loss. I feel very blessed to call you all a true friend. Until next time remember to always say I love you and thank you. What a great place this would be if we all just remembered those two quotes. I hope you all have a wonderful Saturday.