Thursday, December 30, 2010

Take a Picture

I haven't posted in awhile. Christmas has come and gone and I must admit I am glad. I tried to be happy and excited for the girls but inside my heart was bleeding. Everyone said give it time it takes time. Well, let me tell you in time you cry less but you miss them all the same. I miss Ray so much it actually hurts some days. He was not just my husband but my best friend. The thing that is the hardest is being so lonely. I miss our talks we had daily while taking me to work and back. I miss Ray and nothing will change that not even time. It's hard when it really hits you he's not coming back all I have now are years of memories and scrapbooks. Which brings me to the point of my posts. One thing we never did and I wanted to do in August when we were all nice and tan was a family portrait. Well, Ray died before we could take the picture. Next time your taking a picture of your house and decoration sneak a picture or two of your hubby and kids. You can never have too many and make sure you get someone to snap a few of you as well. We have very few of Ray and I together because I was always behind the camera but I am thankful for the few I have and cherish each and everyone. They help tell the story of our love!

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Happy Anniversary

This is the day that would have been our anniversary. This is Ray and I 23 years ago. He gave me my engagement ring on this Christmas 1987. We were married less than a year later. He was the love of my life and that will never end. I still miss him as much as I did the day he died.

My life has been really crazy lately. First they insisted I come back to work sooner than anticipated. I thought I could handle it but seems I couldn't. The Dr took me out of work yet again. If most of you could see me most days I am a wreck still. I have a few good moments every now and again. I don't blog a lot but I try to read every one's posts. Some of you have been so good to me over the past 2 years and I wanted to say thanks again. I hope to post some Christmas pictures soon.