Sunday, September 5, 2010

Never~So~Simple


I know it's been a really long time since I posted. We did finally move into our own home mid June. It started off great but then I started having headaches and losing sleep. I had to go to the Dr and get something for the migraines. Finally I started to feel better but something was just not right. The heat was bad this summer but hey it was better than snow in my opinion. We started to settle in our home and we were ALL very happy.


On August 2 we had to rush Ray to the hospital. We were there no time and we all ran to the Cardiac Cath Lab. He was having a massive heart attack. It was touch and go for almost 2 weeks. On August 12th Ray went for surgery to to have a heart pump put in. It was to assist him until he could recover enough to go on the Heart Transplant list. Ray did fine at first then he took a turn for the worse. August 14th at 10:23pm Ray passed away. It seems like a really bad dream. I was there by his side until the end. I told him over and over how proud I was of him for fighting as long as he could. I assured him the girls and I would be ok and thanked him for being a wonderful husband and father. My life will be forever changed.


I don't know what I want to do next. This house although we only had 6 weeks in it as a family is a reminder of Ray. We don't really like being here and we loved it at first. Eleni stays busy and Jessica stays to herself. I have not been able to return to work. I tried last week and my emotions got the best of me and they sent me home. It was obvious I needed more time. School starts here Tuesday and I am going to try to return to work. I hope we can get back into some kind of routine. I don't know how much I will be blogging but please know I do try to read when I can. I love getting lost in your stories and decorating it's therapy for my mind.


Donna

20 comments:

lisa said...

(((HUGS))) I am so sorry for your lost.. You and your family is in my prayers.. Lisa

Susannah said...

I am so sorry. You are in my thoughts and prayers..as well as your family. God bless you all.

basketsnprims said...

Donna,
My heart just aches for you and the girls. I'm at a loss for words other than to say I'm praying everyday for you all and that I'm so very sorry.
hugs,
Pam

Carmen C. said...

Donna, as you know I've been following everything on FB, and there's not a day that goes by that I don't think of you and your girls and say a prayer for you. I can't imagine what I could say or do to help, but know that so many of us care about you and are praying for you. We just never know what God has in store for us from one day to the next, all we can do is hope for the strength to get through. Were all here for you sweetie, if there is anything at all I can do for you please let me know ((HUGS))

Heather's Stitches said...

I'm so Sorry for your loss and am sending Hugs and prayers to you and your family.

Debbie said...

Donna,
*great big hug* I have been wondering about you this summer and so sorry to hear of your loss. I cannot imagine how your feeling but know I am here for you if you ever want to talk. You and the girls are in my thoughts and prayers.

Take care my friend,
*hugs*
Debbie

Kimberly said...

Donna, I think of your family often and have wondered how you're doing. I am so sorry for your loss. I know there are no words that I can say, but I am praying for you.
Blessings, Kimberly

adsgram said...

God bless you and the family, Donna. I am sure that He must have a plan in store for you for Peace soon. I hope your migraines will subside and that you find each day a bit easier than the last.

Lynne
dlynne172@yahoo.com

Lisa said...

I am so sorry. I can't imagine the pain you must feel. Don't rush yourself, though I understand the need for some routine. You and the girls will be in my prayers.

Tammy ~ Country Girl at Home ~ said...

Donna,

My prayer for you and the girls is that God will be everything you need and restore a joy to your family! I hope you know how sorry I am and I just don't have the words to convey how I feel for you, Jessica and Eleni. Please call or email me anytime you want to talk.

Love, Tammy

Tammy ~ Country Girl at Home ~ said...

Donna,

My prayer for you and the girls is that God will be everything you need and restore a joy to your family! I hope you know how sorry I am and I just don't have the words to convey how I feel for you, Jessica and Eleni. Please call or email me anytime you want to talk.

Love, Tammy

Kindra-At Home With K said...

Donna, I am so, so sorry to hear about your husband. I will be keeping you and girls in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs.

Karen/My Colonial Home said...

OMGOSH DONNA...I'm so sorry for your loss...and for your children's loss.
But my goodness you are doing so well on the outside anyways...but I guess one has to for the children.
Bless you all and don't rush yourself Donna...this is life altering and you need time...it hasn't been all that long.
I hope you are feeling better.

Big hugs, Karen

Happily Ever After said...

So saddened for your lost. I pray that God will comfort you and the girls and put a shield of protection around you and an arm of strength under you.

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Farm Field Primitives said...

I am so very sorry for your family's loss. You are in my prayers for comfort and strength during this time. Please take as much time as you need to get through this.
~Melissa~

Janel said...

Donna,
I am so very sorry for you and the girls. God will not forsake you...that is what my mother whispered into my ear when my husband died at 36. I say the same to you Donna...please call on God to help you get through this.

I just finished praying for Ray and for you and the girls. Please e-mail me if you want at anytime...I can let you know what I went through.

Blessings,
Janel in NJ
ccd4thgrade@yahoo.com

Dale/ACountryshop said...

Donna my heart goes out to you and your family. What a shock.
Sending hugs your way, and prayers for you to get thru this.
Dale

Wendy/TheCozyYellowHouse said...

Donna I am so very sorry for your loss((((HUGS))))I am so heart broken for you all. God Bless you and your girls, please keep in touch with us as you can.~Wendy

terriborgese said...

Donna,

So sorry for your loss of your beloved husband! I have always found comfort in the Blessed Mother and God! You are in my prayers!

Terri